Second Step

Second Step

David Rim

It only takes one step to begin the momentum. And a daily renewal to help refresh ourselves with that morning splash of water on our face. Are we alive or at peace? What can I say about life other then the beauty of it in the trenches. Although, it's been awhile since I felt the depths of wanting to grasp for air.

Yet, everyday I pray for protection and give thanks for each blessing I remembered and forgotten about.

I feel only a two steps ahead of you friends. I lost several friends over the years. Suicide. Is my educated guess. Yet, my soul could not shine bright enough. My spirit sat there nudging me, but over and over again I avoided the difficult conversations. Even, to feeling hopeless, powerless and risking a depressive attitude. Jesus is stronger though. From grandparents to beloved pets passing away the season was there to overcome. Add the weight of unhealthy habits slowly being adjusted one by one.

That journey began to end...

My health has stabilized tremendously. A lot of work done in silence. But continually trying to adapt and improve. Even my spirit has had added a newer layer of armor to shed through before my hearts affected. God told me a few things.

God told me to start praying for my wife. Not sure who, what, where, when, why or how. When the idea is a mystery in itself. I've also been asked to just be there for those around me. No matter how my brain is occupied God wants me to be there. So now a few people come to heart randomly.

It is not those who make me wonder or question. It's those who bring me peace. Nothing glorious, flashy, fancy, just a serene presence in the now. Jesus said to pick up the cross and go. So, now I take two steps back to gain my crews strengths. My purpose has already been written.

Now, it's just Jesus, Me vs the world. Where am I headed and who will stand against me?