숨을 쉬어

숨을 쉬어

David Rim

Three things are in the process. What kind of epic story is this? We met then we take a break apart. Esther took a year to get ready to meet King Xerxes. God reveals your purpose first. So Ruth enters the field where Boaz can casually scan the area and tells her to glean all you want. Then Ruth decided to sleep by the foot of Boaz (by his side) to eventually be a kinsman redeemer.

All I can really do is focus on God.

The timing and current buzzed state I'm in feels nice. It feels like I have that mind explosion meme going on like wow this story's amazing. Gods amazing. Without knowing nothing from anyone's point of view. Yet, I'm at peace, not stirred, not arrogant, just knowing something's right here. You know that feeling, but you can't put a finger on it. I prayed for patience, prayers and pretty people to be surrounded by.

All of it points to a God knock-knocking at my heart~ In the tune of twice song of course.

I'm sure my mannerism have been downloaded already. And studied over again like a research student. Not sure what invisible tension lies here. Nor do I have the motive to pursue. For, if I move I cannot promise an end of the love bombing. The passion, heat, intensity might overwhelm. The cup I hold is overflowing and by not searching it seems the light comes to me. The answers I seek are with God. But everything points back to this same direction.

I'm at a crossroads where Satan would love to cuck me. Yet there are even stronger people praying over me. And God even trolled me earlier today as I was cleaning. These old photos had written timestamps on them. It said one specific word that blew my mind away. Because the Bible has cool stories, but there are lots of patterns. That are applicable to the now and the hindsight that comes with that word. I can't promise perfection. Nor can I reach this place without you.

So I seek to understand what has happened. Ask God why doors open and close so rapidly. And I am knocking for clarity, wisdom, strength, and protection. I do not want to fight the giant, but God's telling me to stop playing with your instruments you got work to do. Trust your feelings. 제발~