뜨거운

뜨거운

David Rim

Like an episode of Heart Signal: as if our signals have been mixed. Where we try so hard to forget, ignore and live our best life. Only to be brought back to this.

Like an episode of Singles Inferno: that intense passion of lust and desire fading burning slowly. I'll put my hands on around your neck, but for you I hold restraint.

My eyesight for distance is usually a warped blur (astigmatism). But the people up on the stage couldn't be mistaken. Insert the internal gaslighting here. The words of affirmation that makes me cringe. I could only muster a micro expression as I walked by with a geeky card box in hand. My eyes darted back and forth a split second to glance, a split second more to focus (near-sighted) and a split second to register. I haven't shown my new pair of eyewear yet. Why is it all roads leading to this. Am I starting to get delusional with age? That cannot be right I trust my feelings. My personal study and meditation of the Bible is slowly getting stronger though.

Who might have thrown away this love? This love isn't forbidden.

Three is an important pattern. Most notably the holy Trinity of God, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.

Impactful, that I could bring some snacks for others to enjoy. While in my mind a few days earlier though, "hey these poppy seed muffins are usually delicious. I wonder if others would like it too". Wait these muffins are too large people would probably grab snacks if it's bite sized. I can only help but notice as the snacks I brought slowly got consumed. I love my card games or maybe strategy playing devils advocate. Luck in the game was not happening for me. Yet it was a trial run for me. I'm stuck with you by my side feeding you information that you innately listened too.

Although I spouted nonsense. Some way there's no feeling here just peace. Like my mind was saying, "strange we are similar, this feeling is oddly familiar, where has this mutual understanding occurred before? Even with a void in verbal communication everything was stellar”.

I haven't actively done anything. Really only been chasing after God's own heart.

And just call it ironic the only two muffins missing are the ones we grabbed. It's awesome to see, but God linked us both. Whatever this purpose is I hope it was revealed for you. You might be keeping yourself busy, throwing the title "for Jesus". Anything to keep yourself distracted. I saw you moving not wanting to sit with the familiar closer friend. Yet, my friend was trying to block me unintentionally. 눈치 없다. But you nearly sat on my lap or did I move a step too fast back to my seat. Was it intentional that you moved to be close to me? Surely there's a better seat! I am totally being sarcastic here. I wanted to move over but there was something going on here. Like Aaron and Hur by my sides holding me up. Not knowing how heavy I have been feeling lately. I can move over it would be the logical thing. Yet, he wanted to sit next to me and you approached simultaneously. I didn't hesitate in my heart. I would have moved over if the situation wasn't so awkward. He should know unless a goldfish moment occured that we both used to talk. I am not mad. No one's perfect. And my brain was overloaded trying to relax and enjoy this time with friends.

Glad to have kicked off the week with fire. It's a God thing fosho. As the old song lyrics go, “in the stillness you are there”.