Weight of Debt

Weight of Debt

David Rim

I have been going through it this month. In a futile attempt of getting better. Only a backwards slide down that mountain was occuring. While the snowball continues to gain momentum I hit rocks that stall me further.

Personally feeling like a wounded animal. Afraid to trust. Filled with fear of the unknown. Is this path the right one to go down God? Microscrolling to fill in a God sized hole in my heart.

God's been telling me to just enjoy the moment. Like a kid freely celebrating the day because the weight of the world hasn't covered them yet. I am fearfully and wonderfully made through the image of Christ. Yet, I fall short daily trying to be in mind. As I remain still, as the world wizzes on by, and people start to lap me like it's a game of Mario Kart. God tells me it's okay. Whatever that means Jesus.

Just love in moment. And let Jesus take the steering wheel. Whatever that means Jesus. I need prayers. I need Jesus because the world is against me shining. Let no words or powers formed against me prevail. The weight feels too heavy for me to carry alone. It has not crushed me yet. I take rest underneath that weight. Looking left and looking right with blurry vision. Seeing who is God-sent for my victory in this season.